A possible dilemma

A possible dilemma is exactly what it is at this point, a possible dilemma.  It has passed now that I have thought about the situation logically.  The possible dilemma starts like this: I was already applying for a fellowship here at Scrantsland and an interning opportunity in Panama, and hopefully getting one.  I emailed The Doc, the same The Doc of my internship in North Carolina, last night.  I didn't ask her for my job back (I asked if she knew of any opportunities because I was planning to cast my net wide) but she offered me my job back, as well as money because she had the funding.  She also offered a position as a science writer for her website.  The possible dilemma then entered when I realized I had these three opportunities ahead of me, and which to focus on.

I said good bye to Panama.

 Panama would have been an excellent opportunity for me with PhD's with interests similar to my own, and an way to make new contacts.  There was another P I had to consider, practicality.   I am a junior in college, with the intention of going to grad school to do a thing and get something and be a scientist five-real (if you can't tell, I have no idea what I want to go to grad school for, one day I will write of my interests).  Panama is a whole summer deal, so I would not be able to visit any schools, and most likely would not be able to study for the GREs.  Plus, if I brought work back from Panama, I may be biting off more than I could chew and back burner my current research which I have busted my butt doing.  Freshmen and sophomores also have preference because they could potentially apply again and would be around longer to tell others to go.

The dilemma could arise again after I talk with my mother tonight about what she thinks (she seems to agree with me with dumping Panama).  At this point, the best case scenario is that I get the fellowship and spend part of my summer in Scranton and part in North Carolina.  Worst case scenario is that I spend my whole summer in North Carolina (and there's NOTHING wrong with that).  I may be bringing back my intern adventures but this time without the pit of despair I experienced in the beginning.  Time will tell.

UPDATE:

One of my friend's said I should apply to Panama still, and now I'm not sure what I should be doing now.  Further update after my developmental bio class.